~~Hate~~

I hate everything...
I hate who I am...
I hate my life...
I hate where I live...
I hate this Damn sun...
I hate this heat...
I hate... to live...
I hate.... the envy people around me...
I hate the things my family do with me...
I hate be the one always guilty...
Despite I am or not...
I am always guilty...
I hate this...
I just... don't hate... more my life...
Because... I have...
love...
a small...
a tiny...
but a love...
love for the moon...
love for that girl...
People... to love me...
People... my donors... I can suck... theier energy...
And be less hateful...
Less dreadful...
Please...
Father Caim...
Mother Lilith...
God Cernunnos...
Goddess Hecate...
Take me out... of this...
DEPRESSION...
I'm not happy...
I'm never entirely happy...
And... I'm afraid... I'll never be... happy again...
Happy... children are happy... with their happy dreams...
My dreams are always dying...
And I'm dying with them...
But... I'm searching... a path... for imortality...
To be...
eternally...
In pain...
To be...
Forever...
and ever...
and after that...
Just... a wistful...
Sad...
and lonely guy...
Who hates...
his life...
PLEASE... HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!